第10章 决战10（2 / 2）
"He stared at Gohan's tattered, purple uniform with bated breath."（他屏住呼吸盯着悟飯那破烂的紫色制服。）
"Perhaps on some level, he had wao leave something of himself behind."（也许在某种程度上，他希望留下一些自己的东西。）
"Do you ever wonder about Namek?" Gohan asked.（“你有没有想过那美克星？”悟飯问道。）
"P Vegeta's gone, but sometimes I'm curious about what it's like..."（“贝吉塔星消失了，但有时我很好奇那里是什么样子的...”）
"What's there to wonder? I didn't even knoart of me until Vegeta broke the news."（“有什么好奇的？我甚至不知道那部分的存在，直到贝吉塔告诉我。”）
"I have all of the Demon King's memories from before his death, and the Demon King has all of God's memories from before the split."（“我拥有魔王死前的所有记忆，而魔王则拥有在分裂之前的上帝的所有记忆。”）
"If I had to guess, the only trace of that p left is our
nguage."（“如果我猜的话，那个星球唯一的痕迹就是我们的语言。”）
"Besides that, it's just decades of sitting in some wastend oh."（“除此之外，它只是在地球上的一片荒地上度过的几十年。”）
In truth, he did wonder.（事实上，他确实很好奇。）
"What did these Namekians look like? What did they live like? Were they aire p of meek, faux-philosophical bores like God? Were they skilled martial artists? Were some of the Demon King's s subsemories of the p? Had the Dragon Balls been a subsemory?"（“那些那美克星人是什么样子的？他们的生活是什么样子的？他们是不是像上帝那样温顺、伪哲学的无聊人？他们是熟练的武术家吗？魔王的一些习俗是对星球的潜意识记忆吗？龙珠是潜意识记忆吗？”）
"They were all questions that swirled his mind, much to his chagrin."（“这些问题都在他脑海中回旋，令他感到烦恼。”）"Sometimes we fixate on impossible shit, y'know?" Gohan said.（“有时候我们会固执于不可能的事情，你知道吗？”悟飯说。）
"Like, what would my father be like if he never hit his head? It's hard to imagihat guy being just as nasty as Vegeta, Nappa, and Raditz."（“比如，如果我父亲没有撞到头，他会是什么样子呢？很难想象那个人会像贝吉塔、纳帕和拉迪茨那样狠毒。”）
Piccolo ughed, admittedly having visualized it himself in his idle time over the years.（悟空笑了起来，坦白说他自己在过去的空闲时间里也曾想象过。）
Goku of all people, Saiyan armor with one of those sadistic smirks on his face.（果然，穿着赛亚人盔甲的悟空脸上露出了那种嗜血的笑容。）
A truly absurd, impossible image.（这是一个真正荒谬而不可能的画面。）
"I have a feeling your father would have been an idiot all the same," Piccolo replied.（“我有种感觉，你父亲始终都是个白痴。”悟空回答道。）
"I wish I could figure out what he really thinks of me," Gohan said, folding his arms again.（“我希望我能弄清楚他对我的真正看法，”悟飯又折起了双臂。）
"He acts like he's okay, and maybe he really is, but I know he wishes I wasn't…" he spread his arms, gesturing towards his body.（“他表现得好像没事，也许他真的没事，但我知道他希望我不是……”他伸开双臂，指着自己的身体。）
"This."（“这个。”）
Piccolo shook his head.（悟空摇了摇头。）
"Kid, your father damn near sees me as his friend, and I've very literally killed him and threatened everyone he's cared about."（“孩子，你父亲几乎把我当成了他的朋友，而我确实曾经杀过他并威胁过他关心的每个人。”）
"I highly doubt he truly thinks less of his own seed."（“我非常怀疑他真的会看低自己的后代。”）
"Furthermore, why do you care? Only you know who you truly are, and your opinion is the only ohat actually matters."（“而且，你为什么在意呢？只有你知道你真正是谁，你的意见才是唯一真正重要的。”）
"If it weren't the case, we wouldn't be here right now."（“如果不是这样的话，我们现在就不会在这里了。”）
"He's my father," Gohaed.（“他是我的父亲，”悟飯争辩道。）
"I'm not like you – I still feel the old memories about myself."（“我不像你——我仍然记得自己的旧记忆。”）
"I remember how much he and mom used to gush over me."（“我记得他和妈妈曾经有多么喜欢我。”）
"I remember…"（“我记得……”）
Gohan choked up.（悟飯哽咽了。）
"For once, he didn't cry, but he had to stop and gather himself."（这一次，他没有哭泣，但他不得不停下来，让自己冷静下来。）
"I remember how much I loved them."（“我记得我有多么爱他们。”）
Gohan buried his head in both hands, looking up at the vast walls.（悟飯把头埋在双手之间，抬头望着辽阔的墙壁。）
"My mom didn't even wao be a fighter."（“我妈妈甚至不希望我成为一名战士。”）
"How I am now? I don't know how she's even been able to look at me."（“我现在的样子？我不知道她是怎么能看得下去的。”）
Piccolo nodded, recalling Chi-Chi's horror and denial when she first saw Gohan for the first time.（悟空点了点头，回想起琪琪第一次见到悟飯时的恐惧和否认。）
"She had even tried to attack him for stating the truth of the matter, even without any judgment or nation."（“她甚至试图攻击他，仅仅是因为他陈述了事实，没有任何判断或谴责。”）
"Vegeta… that's the only father figure I've had," Gohan said with a bitter ugh.（“贝吉塔……那是我唯一的父亲形象，”悟飯苦笑道。）
"And I would have killed him, too."（“而且我也会杀了他。”）
"You may have been in an unhiate, but is it really so bad that you would have pursued vengeaowards somebody who's subjected you to grief?"（“也许你当时情绪失控，但对于那些给你带来痛苦的人，你追求复仇真的那么糟糕吗？”）
"You don't get it," Gohan said.（“你不明白。”悟飯说。）
"You're right."（“你说得对。”）
"I do resent him."（“我确实怨恨他。”）
"But all that es from that weak little baby that Raditz took."（“但这一切都源于那个拉迪茨带走的弱小的婴儿。”）
"Vegeta taught me how to actually be strong."（“贝吉塔教会
了我如何真正变得强大。”）
"He's saved my life."（“他救了我的命。”）
"Even when I thought he didn't give a shit about me, he saved Arepa for no reason than to dht by me."（“即使我认为他根本不在乎我，他也救了阿瑞帕，只是为了对我做对的事。”）
"That was hardly the first time Piccolo had heard Gohahat name, Arepa."（这不是悟空第一次听到悟飯说那个名字，阿瑞帕。）
"He would frequently say it in his sleep; even during his meditation."（“他经常在睡觉时说出来，甚至在冥想时也会说。”）
"Clearly, whomever this person was meant a lot to Gohan."（“显然，这个人对悟飯来说意义重大。”）
"Hell, he might not have been going through all of these struggles if they were around."（“他甚至可能不会经历所有这些挣扎，如果他们在身边的话。”）
"We're back to square ohen," Piccolo said.（“那么我们又回到原点了。”悟空说。）
"There's one part of you that resents everythia put you through, and another part that rejects the very idea."（“你的一部分心里对贝吉塔使你经历的一切怀有怨恨，而另一部分则完全反对这个想法。”）
"With Frieza, it's simple – he's never been anything but terrible, correct?"（“对弗利萨来说，这很简单——他从来没有做过任何好事，对吗？”）
Gohan nodded.（悟飯点了点头。）
"But from the sound of it, Vegeta is several things to you at once."（“但从你的说法来看，贝吉塔对你来说同时具有多种身份。”）
"If you killed Frieza, you would be happy."（“如果你杀了弗利萨，你会感到高兴。”）
"If you killed Vegeta, even if you wao, you'd ultimately hate yourself for it."（“即使你想杀贝吉塔，你最终也会憎恨自己。”）
"You o learn how to ba all out."（“你需要学会如何平衡这一切。”）
Gohan shut his eyes, exhaling through his nose.（悟飯闭上眼睛，通过鼻子呼出气来。）
"I guess."（“我想是吧。”）
He kept his eyes closed as a yellow glow enveloped his body.（他闭着眼睛，全身笼罩在黄色的光芒中。）
From the way his Ki felt, Piccolo could dis he was making a stronger effort to meditate.（从他的气感觉来看，悟空可以断定他正在更努力地冥想。）
For once, he was actually getting through.（这一次，他真的取得了进展。）
Gohan flew as fast as he could, evading the stretchy green arms pursuing his legs.（悟飯以最快的速度飞行，躲避着追逐他的拉长的绿色手臂。）
The further he flew, the chillier his body became.（他飞得越远，他的身体就越寒冷。）
He turned around and fired a bst, but Piccolo easily kicked it away.（他转身发射了一道能量波，但悟空轻易地踢开了它。）
A split-sed ter, the Namekian was right in front of him and delivered a brutal kick to his jaw.（一刹那后，这个纳美克星人就站在他面前，给了他一记狠狠的踢击。）
Gohan dropped down, breaking his fall with a flip to nd on his feet.（悟飯落了下来，用翻身来缓冲着落，稳稳地站在脚上。）
It was month nine, from Gohaimation.（从悟飯的估计来看，这已经是第九个月了。）
He could feel his body growing, and it had often been a painful experience even if he came out stronger for it.（他能感觉到自己的身体在成长，这常常是一种痛苦的经历，尽管他因此变得更强大。）
A month earlier, Piccolo had to zap a new uniform for him after his body ripped through the older one.（一个月前，悟空的身体撕裂了旧的制服，悟空不得不给他传送了一套新的制服。）
Now 14 years old, his voice was just a tad deeper and scratchier too.（现在14岁了，他的声音稍微低沉和嘶哑了一些。）
But that wasn't the most annoying development.（但这不是最令人讨厌的事情。）
With ample time to train in heavier gravity aiditions while Gohaated, Piccolo had bee a truly worthy oppo.（在悟飯冥想时，悟空有充足的时间在更重的重力和不稳定的环境中进行训练，因此悟空已经成为了一个真正的强大对手。）
Save fohan's pses e that drove him to that insidious transformation, their spars were no longer one-sided beatdowns.（除了悟飯因愤怒而发生的那种邪恶的转变之外，他们的格斗已经不再是一方面的压倒性胜利。）
Despite all of his identity issues, Gohan knew ohing for certain – he was a Saiyan, and wouldn't accept anybody besting him in battle.（尽管悟飯存在着诸多身份
问题，但他确信一件事——他是一个赛亚人，不会接受任何人在战斗中胜过他。）
And thus, he flew right back at Piccolo.（因此，他直接向悟空飞去。）
The two warriors in purple met in a csh, exging a flurry of attacks with petitive smirks on their faces.（这两位身着紫色的战士在一次冲突中相遇，他们的脸上带着竞争的笑容，交换着一连串的攻击。）
In many ways, the stant sparring had dulled their hostility.（从许多方面来看，不断的切磋已经减轻了他们之间的敌意。）
Unfortunately fohan, the increasingly cold weather had taken a toll, sapping him of his energy.（不幸的是，越来越冷的天气对悟飯产生了影响，耗尽了他的能量。）
Piccolo, oher hand, hadn't eveered the weather thus far and knocked Gohan all the way down to the floor.（另一方面，悟空甚至没有注意到这种天气，把悟飯打倒在地。）
He nded on his feet again, panting heavily as he looked up.（他再次站起来，大口喘着气，抬头看着前方。）
Vapors left his mouth with every breath.（每一次呼吸，他的嘴里都冒着水蒸气。）
The Namekian phased in front of him and aimed a kick at his chest.（纳美克星人出现在他面前，朝他的胸口踢去。）
While Gohan blocked it with his forearm, he flew away in lieu ering ane of punches and kicks.（尽管悟飯用前臂挡住了它，但他却飞离了现场，以避免引发另一轮拳脚交锋。）Flying brought Gohan further into the cold depths, however.（然而，飞行将悟飯带入了更加寒冷的深处。）
His entire body shivered, having never experienced ditions this frigid in his time in the room.（他的整个身体颤抖着，从未在房间里经历过如此寒冷的条件。）
With his energy running low, he could do little to resist the punch Piccolo delivered to his stomach, falling to the floor while feeling bile rise to his throat.（能量所剩无几，他几乎无力抵抗悟空对他的一击，摔倒在地上，感觉胆汁上涌到喉咙。）
"You humans and your skin," Piccolo taunted.（"你们人类和你们的皮肤，"悟空讥笑道。）
"'t handle a little chill."（"连一点点寒冷都受不了。"）
Of course, even Piccolo had a slight shiver, whiderscored just how absurdly cold the atmosphere had bee.（当然，即使是悟空也微微颤抖了一下，这凸显了大气层变得多么寒冷。）
Loathe to put up with his mohan tried leaping up to prove him wrong, but there was only one problem – his foot wouldn't leave the ground.（悟飯不愿忍受他的嘲笑，试图跳起来证明他错了，但问题只有一个——他的脚无法离开地面。）
When he looked down, his gut wrenched.（当他低头看时，他的内心感到绞痛。）
Ice had taken hold of his foot.（冰已经固定住了他的脚。）
He tried to break free, but it wouldn't budge.（他试图挣脱，但它不动。）
Piccolo flew at him, but Gohan frantically bsted him to send him away.（悟空飞向他，但悟飯疯狂地发射能量把他击退。）
The ice began to spread through his entire leg, even though he could only feel it around his foot.（冰开始蔓延到他整条腿，尽管他只能感觉到它围绕着他的脚。）
He looked at his arms – both now enshrouded in ice.（他看着自己的手臂——现在都被冰覆盖着。）
Shrieking in panic, Gohan somehow broke his foot free from his shoe and flew as far away from the era as he could, as fast as he could.（悟飯惊慌地尖叫着，不知怎么地将脚从鞋子中挣脱出来，尽可能远、尽可能快地飞离了那个地方。）
Eventually, his energy ran out and he colpsed, falling onto his hands and knees on the floor.（最终，他的能量耗尽了，他倒在地板上，跪在地上。）
His body was shaking as he desperately heaved for oxygen, running ragged even after adjusted to the thin air.（他的身体颤抖着，拼命地呼吸着氧气，即使适应了稀薄的空气，仍然筋疲力尽。）
His heart pounded in his chest as nightmares of the all-enpassing ied him.（他的心在胸腔里砰砰直跳，全面覆盖的冰带给他噩梦。）
He hadn't even realized that the rest of his limbs were actually fine, and that only the one shoe he had left behind had actually been caught.（他甚至没有意识到自己的其他四肢其实没事，只有他留下的那只鞋子被冰所困住了。）
"What the hell's the matter with you?" Piccolo asked, flying ba.（"你到底怎么了？"悟空问道，飞回来。）
"Your foot got frozen up. Big deal."（"你的脚被冻住了，没什么大不了的。"）
"The ice…!" Gohan whimpered. "It was…it was…"（"冰……！"悟飯哀嚎道，"它……它……"）
"Was what?" Piccolo asked. "It was hardly a threat. Your own energy could have put it away."（"是什么？"悟空问道，"它几乎算不上威胁。你自己的能量本来可以把它消灭的。"）
Whatever Piccolo was saying, Gohan didn't register.（无论悟空说什么，悟飯都没有听进去。）
The sound of his owbeat had drowned everything else out.（他自己心跳的声音淹没了其他一切声音。）
Feeling his grip slip again brought tears to the boy's eyes.（再次感到手的控制力减弱让悟飯的眼睛湿润了。）
How could this still be happening? After months of isotioill wasn't anywhere close.（这怎么还会发生？经过数月的孤立，他仍然没有丝毫进展。）
"What's going on, really?" Piccolo asked.（"到底发生了什么？"悟空问道。）
"I highly doubt you're that freaked out just over some ice."（"我非常怀疑你就因为一些冰而害怕成这样。"）
"I 't," Gohan groaned. "I 't…do it…it's not enough!"（"我不行，"悟飯呻吟道，"我不行……做不到……还不够！"）
"What's wrong?!" Pianded. "You 't keep bottling it up."（"
怎么了？！"悟空要求道，"你不能一直憋着。"）
"It's Frieza!" Gohan finally choked out.（"是弗利沙！"悟飯终于喘不过气来说出来。）
"Frieza…ice. Tch. How banal."（"弗利沙……冰。呸，多么平庸。"）
"You don't fug get it!" Gohan snapped, sitting back up.（"你他妈的根本不懂！"悟飯怒斥道，重新坐直。）
He finally realized that his arms were still normal, though he kept moving them around to make sure.（他终于意识到他的手臂还是正常的，尽管他不停地摆动着手臂以确保。）
"You didn't see Frieza turn a man's arm into id destroy it!"（"你没看到弗利沙把一个人的手臂变成冰然后摧毁吗！"）
"What?" Piccolo asked, caught off-guard. Even he sounded fearful.（"什么？"悟空吃了一惊，甚至他听起来都很害怕。）
Gohan wiped off his eyes as his body kept shaking.（悟飯擦去眼睛，身体不停地颤抖着。）
Piccolo was right – he couldn't keep bottling everything up.（悟空说得对——他不能一直憋着。）
"It's been almost ten years…and I still 't get it out of my head. I keep seeing everything I care about gettiroyed like that."（"已经快十年了……可我还是无法忘怀。我一直都看到我所关心的一切都被摧毁成那样。"）
"So it's Frieza's power you fear," Piccolo deduced.（"所以你害怕的是弗利沙的力量，"悟空推断道。）
"I thought I was getting somewhere…" Gohaed. "Ever sihat day, every time I think I'm turning a er, that fug ice keeps remindihat happened right after I took a whole army out by myself. It was the first time I ever actually felt strong for once. I wasn't g etting pushed around. I even saved Vegeta's life…"（"我以为我已经取得了一些进展……"悟飯哀叹道，"自从那天以来，每当我觉得我正在转过一个弯时，这该死的冰就会提醒我。那发生在我独自击败一整支军队之后。那是我第一次真正感到自己很强大。我没有哭泣，没有被推来推去。我甚至还救了贝吉塔的命……"）
He ched his fist, trying to grasp that feeling of invincibility again. "It could've all been over. Right iermath, my father made that wish t me back. The Dragon even asked my permission."（他握紧拳头，试图再次抓住那种无敌的感觉，"一切都可能结束了。就在之后，我的父亲许愿让我回来。龙甚至询问了我的意愿。"）
"Seriously?" Gohan answered with a nod. "It could've been all over. I would've been back here without a trace, but I tur down. I bought into everything. I wao feel strong, I wao keep taking people down until I got to Frieza, and then I realized I wasn't anywhere fug close."（"真的？"悟飯点头回答，"一切都可能结束了。我会毫不留痕地回到这里，但我拒绝了。我相信了一切。我想感到强大，我想一直击败人们直到我打到弗利沙，然后我意识到我一点也不接近。"）
He viciously punched his own foot, nearly crag his knuckles. "Don't you see now?! This was all my choice! I chose to keep doing this 'cause deep down, I liked it. And it's not even enough."（他狠狠地揍了自己的脚，几乎把指关节弄裂了，"你现在难道不明白吗？！这都是我的选择！因为我内心深处喜欢，我选择继续这样做。可还远远不够。"）
A sharp pain stabbed at Gohan's head like a series of icepicks, f him to rub his temple.（剧痛刺痛着悟飯的头，就像一系列冰锥，迫使他揉了揉太阳穴。）
"Everyone will die because of me…even if we mao beat Frieza."（"每个人都会因为我而死……即使我们设法击败了弗利沙。"）
"So, the ice holds it all, then," Piccolo said. "Everything you hate, everything you fear."（"所以，冰包容了一切，"悟空说道，"你所讨厌的一切，你所害怕的一切。"）
"Everything I love…" Gohan blurted out.（"还有我所爱的一切……"悟飯脱口而出。）
It wasn't just fear that the ice made Gohan recall. It a and her pale, blue eyes.（冰让悟飯回忆起来的不仅仅是恐惧，还有阿瑞帕和她苍白的蓝眼睛。）
A day may have only been going on outside, but he still had no idea if she was well or not.（外面可能只过了一天，但他仍然不知道她是否安好。）
She had been dragged into his life, and his fight, because
of that same assault on Kab's empire.（正是因为对卡布尼特帝国的袭击，她被卷入了他的生活和战斗中。）
The eyes that granted Arepa her beauty had cursed her to suffer the sequences of Gohan's as.（给阿瑞帕带来美丽的眼睛却诅咒她要承受悟飯行动的后果。）